yawn!

So, my best buddy(ies) Love Batman. He is their super-hero. I always used to laugh at them. Really. Batman. 

And then, I watched the series. Batman begins and the Dark Knight. Whats interesting is that he gets hurt. A lot. Physically. And emotionally. I like it that he is vulnerable. Has fears. He probably still fears a lot of things. And he is a hero. How? 

I wonder...

P.S: Rachel in the new movie is plain ugly! 

Stupid person, Stupid life?

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”



This is a quote by Neil Gaiman. I sent it to a friend and her reaction was '(expletive!) that just about sums it up!'



Comments?



-K

Matters of the Soul!

It's a Sunday morning, 7 am when I start writing this post. I woke up, made myself some tea and sat down to do some writing while my maid is cleaning the house. This is the first weekend in so many months that I am doing nothing but staying home and relaxing. There's a reason. The reason is a book. 'Brida' by Paulo Coelho. In short, it's a book on the Wicca culture.

A few days back, my girlfriends from work left early and I had nothing to do. On a whim, I decided to go to my favourite bookshop. That week was particularly troubled for me. My heart was in a turmoil. And no prizes for guessing... It was a guy. I did not know how I felt about him and what he expected from me. I did not know if he was 'the one.' Or, in other words the burning question was 'is he or will he be my soulmate?'

I stroll around the bookshop with this thought in my head and decided on reading Salman Rushdie's new book. It was crappy. I moved on. I reached this pile of books and saw that it was the Paulo Coelho pile. I read the cover and see this:

'But how do I know who my soulmate is?'
'By taking risks' she said to Brida. 'By risking failure, disappointment, disillusion, but never ceasing in your search for Love. As long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end.'

Corny? 'Yewwwwwww' reaction? I care not. Guess what. This Wicca tells Brida that a person can have more than one soulmate and that it needn't necessarily be a guy all the time. Apparently, Adam's soul was split and Eve was born. That's the way with soulmates. The soulmates are a part of one soul and in each life, we are obliged to find at least one of these soulmates. Sometimes a soulmate walks past us and we do not even notice it. We have to take another life to meet the soulmate again, it seems.

I have not finished the book yet and I don't know how long it is going to take. All I do know is, the book has made me stop passing each moment and made me sit down and be aware of each waking moment. Which is why unusually for me, I woke up early and sat down to write this. Have I found my soulmate? I don't think so. Will I find him? I hope so. Have I passed by him and not noticed? I wonder...

-K

Music: U2 - I still Haven't found what I am looking for. (Jaggu's Fave because he says life is like that)

Friends...

You do not know how much they mean to me, my friends,
And how, how rare and strange it is, to find
In a life composed so much, so much of odds and ends...
To find a friend who has these qualities,
Who has, and gives
Those qualities upon which friendship lives.

--T.S. Eliot

I couldn't agree more.

Ah! A Song!

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This is an all time fav song and I cant stop listening to this. Sruthi and I don't stop singing this either. LOL. This one's for you girl. :)

Can't think of any.

Independence has always been cherished by everyone. Teenagers want to be independent, move out of their homes and live with friends. Women want to be independent, work and like to be able to get what they want. Men like to be independent, in their thoughts and actions. Children want to be left alone. Older people hate relying on their children for all they need. There is so much talk of independence and space going on all around me and to be honest I take part in it as well, sometimes.

This made me wonder... If all of us want to be independent, why are we together? I think the best form of independence is to be all by yourself, no ties, no bondage... You are completely on your own. Still, the very thought is scary and it sends shivers down my spine.

I wonder, is this a game that we play so we fit in with the rest of the world? I know some men and women who genuinely prefer being on their own and are always appreciated for the 'bold' stance that they have taken. Their lives have the positives too... They can plan their days around themselves and their jobs, they can take vacation when they feel like it, they have no PTA meetings to go to, no first aid to be done, no phone calls to be made, none to be answered... On the down side, they have no one to go home to, no one to spend the time with, extreme loneliness, really... Its hard to decide which one is the way to go...

If you all are wondering why I am musing loud about this it is because of a conversation I had with someone. Lets name this someone as 'X' and for convenience it is a 'he.' :) So, X wanted to know how I would maintain my independence after (if) I get married. I thought about it while munching on a well made toast... The answer is, I can't decide on my own. I tell him that I will have to draw a line on most things... It will be inappropriate for me to want to or even consider living life like the way I do now. I mean, I am all for a woman working after marriage and all that. But, how do people manage both family and work? I am freaking out at the thought!!! I mean, I have had my life easy up until now. No one to cook for, no ones laundry to be done, no dishes, no cleaning up after people, no planning the monthly budget... And all these things gets added to your life overnight!

Conversation with X was an eye-opener. It made me realize a lot of things and also accept many more. He leaves the breakfast table with a glint in his eye. And the parting shot is " I thought as much!" What ever that means, I do not want to know X! I don't know why this piece is on my blog. Strange, huh?

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